There's something that I thinkI should tell you all.I'm not feeling very well.I haven't been for a while.Something inside me has jumped the track.I'm confused.I'm not thinking right.I'm not sleeping right.Just don't think I am complainingabout this......or asking for your help......because there's nothing anyone can do.It's happened and that's it.I don't know what I'm going to sayfrom one minute to the next.I really don't.I don't know what I'm going to say,or what I'm going to do.Do you understand?I know this is coming at a bad timefor everyone......but there's nothing I can do about that.I'm tired and I'm....I don't see things the way that I used to.Everything......everything, everythingis fucking strange......and it's all completely out of control......and I'm frightened.Maybe if you allcould give me some real help......and not your pity or generosity,but some help.Take a look at me.I know I'm ruining everything,but if I don't say this, I may never say it.Everything's going fast. It's goingvery fast. It's completely out of control.If I don't say it today,tomorrow may be too late.I may be too crazy to even knowhow crazy I am.I don't know what to do!I don't know what to do!Something has happened to me,and I'm very lost!And it doesn't stop. It's not getting better.I don't get better. I'm not getting better.It's just going on, and it's going on.And there's nothing that I can do about it.It's not stopping!It's not stopping.Stupid.I'm fine.I feel better.Thanks. I'm okay.Don't worry. I'll be okay. I'm sorry.